The Universe's plan-

It is interesting that a dream that started 4 years ago, is now being being called to creation.  I recently asked the universe and all my support to help me shift gears in my career.  3 months ago, I departed from a job that was a big part of my heart and soul for 7 years.  My partner and I built it from the ground up.  The way we "split up" was not the most desirable, however, it was something that I had been asking for for quite some time.  I could tell it was time to leave, and to be honest, I didn't know how to leave.  It was like saying good bye to your family, to your children-  how do you do that? Well, I will tell you, its much easier to have someone come in and force you out! Problem solved! It was like having a toxic limb torn off of your body.  It was painful, but needed for me to live a more full life.  We always hear "be careful what you wish for",  and this was one of those situations.  I was upset how I left my company, but had been wanting to leave.  I learned in a big way how we get what we ask for, so why get upset when you get it? Even if it is not the way you expected it to go. Additionally, I had a financial "plan" for my family with this change that I felt was my "way out" of having to work another job.  I was excited about the opportunity to stay home with the kids and dig deeper into the mom role, and to also support my husband in his life passion of helping people heal through energy medicine among other modalities.  Well, the Universe had other plans.

The financial plan that I had, has become more and more delayed, and well - the kids have to eat! I began to get a knot in my stomach, a desperate kind of feeling of "If this doesn't happen, then what?" "Will I need to go get a job?" "How will my husband be able to expand his business if I am working too?".... many, many questions began playing in my head, and doubt crept in.  I beat myself up in my head! "What was I even good at?" "How would I make the money I was making, or more?" I could tell I was hiding from some of these questions.  I pressed on, enjoying the time off and feeling like I could totally be good with helping my husband build his business and raising the girls for the time being.  The time would come down the road a bit when I would take action on my own personal dreams. Yeah, well living with backdoors leak our power, and that is just not in the cards for me.

The time has come. The dream is ready to be built now. As I have promised myself, I will live for me and my dreams, as well as play these other roles in my life.  I have been lost before, carrying someone else's dream and that is not happening again.  Fear will not get in the way of me pursuing the creation of something that so clearly is ready to be built. Facing my own fear of doubting my abilities, and the power to manifest is much less scary than never trying.  I remember hearing Jim Carrey talk about his dad.  Jim said that his dad was the funniest person he knew, but he never chased his dream of being a comedian.  Instead, his dad compromised and worked as a CPA until he nearly retired- doing the "safe" thing.  His dad was fired just days before being able to retire.  In his own eyes, he failed. Jim realized that he could just as easily "fail" at something he didn't love doing, as he could at something he was passionate about.  He decided to follow his dreams, the rest of the story is history.

May we each reach for our dreams and our passions.  May our fears be dwarfed by our inner desire for change. Welcome to my journey.

AHO -